I've been thinking...

...this whole power of thought, positive vs. negitive intent and Law of actraction stuff...there's something to it. Little things happen to me through out the day I've begun to be aware of and take note. Be it a repeated thought or just a strong chioce made in the mind. Next thing you know plans for your day change to align with what YOU really wanted. Or the phone rings and that person(s) you needed to speak to, calls : ) And these are little things.

I grew up aware of the bible verse that read..." Be transformed by the renewing of your mind" and how we can move mountains if we have faith of a mustard seed. "Ask and ye shall receive..." How about taking God up on the challenge to test Him in the matters of Finances?

Then The Secret became a popular thing everyone talked about.A friend shared it with me. There is this one part that stood out, this guy gave the example of how we are so clear when we go to a restaraunt to expect what we ordered to be brought to us, yet we don't do that for our lives. Why don't we?

Anyway, got me to thinking...

Happy 4th!

Today being Friday I'm on call.I ended up starting my day early.The house is quiet with my Kurt in Huntington Beach selling shaved ice and Kettle Corn.Did some Jam writing and continued with an exercise called clustering.I'm really enjoying this book called Writing The Natural Way a friend let me borrow. I feel like it's a nice follow up to the Artist Way bk.

I gave myself a mini fashion show of the new summer outfits. I had fun. Just me, the mirror, and clothes, clothes, clothes. :) I think I want to get updated glamor shots for my birthday coming up : )

Anyway, it being 4th of July and all I'm thinking of watching fireworks near by. I have the choice between Fantesy Springs casino or catch the ones by the Date festival grounds on my way over to stay at friends home.Work never did call...

To Do List

I have a, no several, to do list. Need to, want to, have to, and must do ASAP. The latter one gets taped to the wall by my keys, is written in black or colored marker and highlighted. Today I did one of the items on the ASAP list (filled out the forms) and from the “ need to” I completed #5 task (organize kitchen pantry.) Both were rewarding to finally cross off.

"My Sunshine Factory"

Left arm falling asleep awakes me and I shift,causing my dream to fade away...Eyes heavy,body tired from the weird intensness of it...I try to remember key things to write down as it slips further away then disappears.Did it have a meaning i wonder...

The day begins.The atmospher in the home is happy but then shifts to frustration. Though the sun is out,a gray luminous cloud cover has moved inside. I begin to notice getting pulled into it,and decide to step away with the thought,"No,not happening.I'm choosing the sunny side today." I gave some space...then a smile,a small funny line was said,a touch and quick kiss. A little light wrestleling with laughter...then the hug.

Looking up at me from the floor,he say's " Thank you for being my Sunshine factory." :)

Those moments...

There are those moments in romantic movies that just get me everytime...though written awhile back, thought I'd add this piece.


Thursday October 12th 2006 11pm ~ Indio Ca

I haven't written in awhile, I mean really written...Even now I pause as I type...I just finished watching Runaway Bride on TV, I sighed when Ike shares with Maggie a real proposal from the heart. I bawled when she, after a period of time goes to his New York apartment, turns in her running shoes to him and when he hesitates after she got down on one knee to propose, she looks him in the eye and say's the words of a proposal she heard from this reporter...”I guarantee there will be tough times and there will be day's we both will want to leave one another but I also know my life will not be the same if you are not in it...”

Prior to this I had had just watched for the first time a movie I bought in MT called Bigger than the Sky. It was good. I got emotional when a mentor and friend in the theater died of Cancer. They gathered to honor, celebrate and remember him. As his ashes rose up and around the stage, scattered by the fan I cried... I cried for the difference he made in the world around him, the friends he invested in, the students he inspired the full life he lived right up until the end. I cried thinking of what memories do I leave with people? What when I pass on, will I be remembered for as a person?

Short but sweet : )

Hello,

I just returned from a quick trip to Arizona.
Very glad I made the 4 hour drive to Masa. My visit was short, but sweet.


I do enjoy my time with Alex and Jordan. Conversations early into the morning on all kinds of topics. Lots of laughter and teasing. Watching Wanted together at the theater.Good food shared. Made my first vegtable sushi roll : ) Was happy when Alex pulled out his guitar to play. I miss the sound of music played in the home, songs sung together...or listening to a sibblings latest song written...



We had dinner with Parents Sunday evening. Good visit. Mom has a gift of hosting people in her home, whatever the number that encircles her table. Dad really liked the game of cards. (we must remember to play again next visit.) Never did get my hours of Massage I wanted at the school in Tempe. Oh well, next time.

6 more hours till Kurt's plane lands...seems like forever! He's been in Minnesota for a week and I can't wait to see him!!!